i have been pouring my guts out to strangers on the internet for months now, so i figured it would be a good time to introduce (or reintroduce) afternoons with Harley!
i used to be the happiest girl in the world.
my life was an absolute dream. i had a fulfilling & exciting career, i was married to the man of my dreams that i could not get enough of & i was spending my spare time planning renovations for our big, old house that we had just bought.
my life was better than i deserved & i had everything i had ever wanted & more.
until the morning i woke up in my mama’s house with none of that.
no dream house, husband or purpose in life.
turns out that my life wasn’t actually as great as i had been believing.
i had ended up in a terrible situation with no choice but to leave & leave everything behind.
except for Harley, my little white dog & the only thing that got me out of bed.
i spent a lot of time laying around, crying & reading & writing with Harls curled up by my side.
each afternoon i would write out an inspirational quote in my notebook, snap a picture of it beside Harley & make it my display picture on my cell phone.
i hoped it would make me feel better.
and it did.
then i started writing my own affirmations & felt even better. after a while, i was slowly climbing out of the dark hole i had been sulking in.
but just when i thought i had faced the worst of the worst – i suffered a heartbreak that still has tears streaming down my face as i write this.
Harls had cancer.
i lost the only thing that brought me any kind of peace, any kind of feeling.
i lost my heart.
and honestly, i still haven’t recovered.
maybe i never will.
but i was left with endless amounts of pictures of her & notebooks upon notebooks full of words.
some painful, some absolutely pitiful & some promising to myself that i wouldn’t stop fighting for my happiness & rebuilding my life.
it was my afternoons with Harley that saved me.
and i’m sharing them now, in Harls’ memory that they might help others too.
i know i’m not the only gal who went through a toxic relationship or a bad marriage & i hope that afternoonswithharley.com becomes a community where we can come together, share our stories & support one another with whatever we are going through.