i can remember, not that long ago, a time when i felt like i had no time.
my marriage was at it’s very worst point & every day felt like a war that i was just trying to survive.
except for these few precious hours between when i got home from work & when my ex did.
the only time of day i was alone in the house – when i could breathe easy & do all the things i loved doing.
simple things, like cranking the music i wanted to listen to & singing along as loud as i could.
or cooking my favourite meals in our beautiful kitchen & slowly enjoying them in our otherwise unused dining room.
or walking around the yard barefoot with Harls – just enjoying the sunshine & the fresh air.
i always made the most of these hours because i knew that when i heard that vehicle pull up in the driveway, i would retreat back to my library & hide out there for the rest of the night.
and i would repeat the process all over again the very next day.
but when i was alone… there were no sounds, or smells or messes that were off limits. i could truly be myself & enjoy myself without any consequences or repercussions.
being out of that bad situation & on my own now, i do have a lot more time (i know i’ve always had the same 24 hours, i just no longer spend most of it locked in a spare room)!
and now that i am working from home, i feel like i have even more free time.
those hours are as special as the few i used to have to myself back when i was married & i still try to spend that time doing the things that bring me the most joy.
and i always make sure i find time for myself – even on my busiest, most stressful days.
listening to & reading the things i love, eating the food i like best… even down to the lotion i use, the socks i wear, the notebooks i write in – if i don’t love the heck out of it – i don’t bother with it.
because i am never going to take my time – or myself – for granted ever again.
i hope you are finding time for yourself & i’d love to know in the comments how you are making use of that time these days!