i woke up this morning feeling like garbage.
not cold or flu sick but a sort of self-inflicted illness due to poor sleep, not enough water, too much junk food & sugar & very little movement.
i could barely get out of bed & this is the third sunday in a row that i’ve felt this lethargic. and i’m not hungover either – in case that’s what you’re thinking.
in fact i only had one tiny glass of wine at the ballet last night… but i did have some really salty junkie food & a massive coke zero before bed.
which lead to barely sleeping last night. i had the worst stomach ache, these weird shooting pains in my leg & a big old headache in the morning.
actually afternoon – i didn’t get out of bed until noon. which gives me only 7 hours to enjoy my sunday before i go to bed (super early since i get up at 3am for work).
and that is so sad to me.
i’m wasting my time because i’m treating my body like garbage.
other than my dog, how i treat myself & how i spend my time matter most & i’m not being intentional with either one at all.
every week i say i’m going to get healthy, buy better groceries, get more sleep & start getting serious.
but by wednesday, i’m usually so exhausted that i crash on the couch after work & order in food. i eat those salty, high fat leftovers for a couple of days & then it’s the weekend.
where i drink way too many lattes, more junkie food with my friends & stay up till 2am – completely throwing off my sleep & my stomach.
sunday & monday i feel absolutely terrible & nap a lot & then by tuesday i’m feeling okay.
but after that wednesday hits & i hit up my favourite thai place for spicy noodles & deep fried tofu again.
now i don’t think the problem is going out on the weekends with my friends – that’s actually something i’m trying to actively do more after being such a homebody for so long.
i believe the problem is my monday to friday. that’s where i really need to make some serious changes that i’ll stick to.
so this week i’ve committed to:
– filling out a completely honest food diary
– picking out a few healthy recipes to make at home
– buying better snacks & fizzy water to reach for in the afternoons
– limiting myself to one takeaway meal this week
– following the alarm that goes off when it’s time for bed
– drinking enough water
but the biggest piece of this is that now that i actually have a little bit of a plan & i’ve put it up where others can see… i’ll be more accountable & it will up my chances of sticking to this.
wish me luck!