the words that started it all.
the ones that sparked the idea that maybe, just maybe, i should share my story with the world.
at that point, writing quotes down & journaling my feelings had become part of my daily routine. however these pictures of Harls & the inspiring phrases were only making it as far as the screensaver on my phone.
i was feeling extremely ashamed of what i saw (& sometimes still see) as my biggest failure in life.
i was embarrassed to be getting a divorce at such a young age, after not being married for very long. embarrassed over what happened to me.
i felt a lot of shame. my story was shameful.
and i hated it. hated how i saw myself, how i thought others saw me.
then one day while i was moping around with Harls & writing, i came across these words & just felt something shift.
i had ended up in the worst place i have ever been in, both physically & emotionally, because i wasn’t being true to myself.
i wasn’t listening to my intuition, speaking up for myself or following my heart. and it sucked.
but what was i still doing, each & every day??
hiding myself. hiding my story.
that’s when i decided that i went through what i went through, i am where i am & i might as well do something about it.
i figured if others heard my story & could relate, maybe it would help all around.
and if i opened up & people absolutely hated me… well… no one could possibly hate me more than i did at that time.
so i had nothing to lose.
thankfully, you all have been incredibly supportive & the amount of messages i’ve received, sharing similar stories to mine are both heartbreaking & inspiring at the same time.
and since this is the canadian mental health association’s ‘mental health week’ (until may 10th), i thought it was a good time to share this quote with you.
it’s super scary to speak up & i’m not saying that you should start a blog, sharing your struggles & secrets with complete strangers… but i am saying that talking to someone you trust can help you feel a whole lot better.
and that maybe the more you open up & the more you share, the less you’ll feel like a freak.
at least that’s why i pour my heart out each & every week – so you feel like you can be your true self & i can feel like i’m not walking this painful road alone.
afternoons with harley is a community for those who have felt or feel ashamed by their story.
you are certainly not alone & i hope you always feel welcome here.
ps – for more on mental health week & the cmha – click here.